Thursday, 8 December 2016

Your Worst Enemy Is You by Bandile

Note:This is my first Article for the TIT [Take It Thursday] campaign set to bring out young kings and queens

This might add salt to the wound (to some ) but as vivid as it is, it's the truth so rather, call it Bittersweet facts.
You may be sitting at your lunch break from work, in the middle of class avoiding lecture, or lying alone in a bed that used to be occupied by two people with tears quietly welling up behind your bright eyes and a harsh sensation creeping up your throat.

Your nights are occupied with seclusion and
your heart is wrecked into pieces that can never be fused back together without flaws no matter how hard you try.

Every morning, you paste a sweet smile on that beautiful face of yours to let society know that you are okay.
Well maybe you are
On the outside...

But guess what, you aren’t okay. Behind closed doors, you are absolutely lost and you believe there isn’t a damn thing you can do about it.
Oh, how I wish I could reach through your screen and give you the maternal embrace that makes you shed tears instantly.
You, yes you, deserve someone who will sit
silently next to you as you stare blankly at the familiar bedroom wall with tears continuously falling collecting at your chin.

You deserve someone that holds you delicately
until you decide to start murmuring words faintly. You deserve to move forward and be the best possible version of yourself and if you do not see that now, it is okay.
Sit there silently, cry, scream, or beat that pillow you used to share with whom you thought was the one. Listen to the music that somehow demonstrates your emotions in melodic form or watch that romance movie that is so melodramatic but mimics your exact state, like it was somehow filmed just for you.

Hell, you could be the leading actor or actress.
Each story is distinctive.
Whether your tale was an abrupt onset like strange tap on your delicate naked shoulder or a bubbling eerie feeling deep within your gut, I am truly sorry.
You do not deserve what you are going through, you do not deserve to spend your nights crying yourself to sleep.
But, can I promise you one thing?
You will appreciate love and happiness now.
Not one person can truly value cheerfulness and adoration until they have been chewed up, spit out, and treated like trash.(If everything makes sense when you hit the bong)

You want to be strong.
No, you need to be strong.
Your friends are all happy with their relationships, so who are you to be the burden repetitively complaining about how the carpet was snatched rapidly from underneath your feet and how you were left in the dirt.
After all, this person that turned their back was your other half whom you once trusted completely and wholeheartedly, right?
Let me give some advice and you probably will not like it, break down that wall you have so meticulously constructed.
Invite in the one who has been sitting on their ass outside, waiting for a chance to see how extraordinary you really are.
You are terrified to be disappointed, damaged, and kicked to the curb once again.

Take a moment to take a moment and hear this
There is a time to stand tall against your fears and
that time is now.
You are your worst enemy.
Move on from
the feeling of disparity, go look in the mirror and tell
yourself you are worthy to feel blissful again.
Never ever let obstacles make you feel like your life ain't worth living.
I always say,  you can't call it faith if you only believe in safety
So it's a test, take it up and prove your worth in this world full of bitter people.
Be sweet
Be a queen
Be the king of your own jungle

This isn't applicable to those who stood on pedestals with "someone" only to find themselves alone
When I say someone, I'm using finger speech marks
There are masqueraders out there, love yourself
The sun will glitter and make you shine very soon
Whether you're sitting at home without a job
Or you're on a job you barely love...

Hold on, pave the road to what you love
If not you, who will do it?
There are no robots made for your ambitions and dreams
Keep your eyes open and your brains too.

I promise, your time is coming soon

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