The first time I saw her
She was walking as if her footsteps questioned the ground of its purpose.
And she's beautiful,
Like sometimes I'd be stuck on her grin and the orchestra in her voice
She has violins in her eye lashes
An acoustic guitar on her belly
Her mouth has a mix tape registered under the record label called 'lies'
But she says she loves me
I doubt she played the puzzle game while young because the way she answered me
It showed that she had no experience in choosing the right words
Yet she says she loves me
So I understand and I blame it on her childhood
And then I ask her to at least think before she talks
To at least think before she does something
Because I love her
And she says she loves a nigga
So she visits me whenever she misses me
I smile whenever she pisses me
Off
Because I love her
Like sometimes she'd cheat and I'd forgive her because they say 'love is patient'
Even after cheating, she'd cheat with a cheater
For heaven's sake,this girl is a cheetah
She's quick to forget,
Not because she likes to
But because keeping things is something she can't do
But I love her
So I'd sit her down,
Tell her that I love her
And with her I wish to settle down
But she'd continue backstabbing me and come back to sing the same fucking irritating song
She'll say she loves me
My mind will be filled with millions thoughts
Legs will attract with the magnet afar from her so I start drifting away
From this girl who's a museum of pain
And my mouth will overflow with doubts and questions
Like
How can you love someone and not show it?
How can you say you love someone and not listen to that person?
Aren't you supposed to be a team
Talk things through instead of being a laboratory of heartbreaking experiments
But she says she loves me
Then she shouts at me
Like 'wasn't the sex proof enough that I love you!!?"
I'd say that's where you're wrong boo
Love isn't about you moaning and me groaning
Its about us bonding, us growing
From stammering to saying boldly
From reading a sentence to a paragraph
Love is about taking your slack and claim it as mine
And hope that you will alter your ways
But instead you master your traits
You find new ways to break my heart
New ways to stab my bleeding back
Yet you say you love me
I never whimpered,
I never stood in your doorstep and told you how close I am to the brink of insanity
How many times i wrote that breakup message and delete it
Since you'd promise to change
And its been months since I last heard your voice
But poetry has filled that void
You never listened to my poetry
You never watched me as I strip myself on the microphone
And I love those,
But I still loved you, without doubts
You'd cheat and I'd trust you
And my love will not alter
Because it was real
No matter what happened
I never did something that'd break you
I wish you'd be saying that now
I need a break too
I'm sick of all the fake apologies
I was hoping you'd start speaking like me
Dine you and you'd one day eat like me
I was wrong
A fool like me can't force a chameleon to change it's colours
But you're always in my prayers
Pleading God to keep you safe from players
For you deserve love,
You're broken, and love is the only thing that can fix you
I miss you
It's not even an issue
I'll always do
But I can't let you break another tissue
Of my heart
I love you
And don't say you love me unless you mean it
Unless you mean it
©TheMostCreative ™
2016
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